i have been very inactive here for the past two-three years, and the reason was.. well.. a lot has happened in my life since then.
situation in my family was very stressful back then. my two grandmas were fighting illness which got progressively worse, and ended in two deaths in the span of 6 months.
this crushed me and i felt depressed for the longest time and didn't know what to do with my life. i would sleep a lot and felt like there is no reason for me to get up. i found no pleasure in drawing, everything seemed pointless.
i would draw pictures here but clearly there was not much promise for any sort of career, and honestly i didn't even know what to do with my skills. sure i took a few jobs here and there but i felt like i was standing in place.
and as depression often likes to distort the views of your own capabilities and passions,so i too sat there thinking.. why would anybody even hire me as an artist in the first place.. clearly my husband is all the world ever needs. depression is like an acid, it eats up through layers of your smallest insecurities and turn them into big problems leaving you feeling like there is no hope.
but then the strangest thing happened. my husband drew me a picture one day to cheer me up.
him cheering me up wasn't the strange thing, because he was and is always there for me, no matter the situation, he always gives me strength. but the picture was something i never asked for because being a busy guy like he is, i would rather not pester him to draw a picture for me too after all the work had already drained him.
that one picture turned my whole life around. just one simple picture... such a small thing.
for the first time in the longest time, i felt inspired to draw and write again. i drew the characters from the picture and slowly, little by little i gave them life. i made strips.i made them go through silly and funny situations together. i wanted to laugh, and to make others laugh with me.
since not too long ago, my husband too started a webcomic, he encouraged me to do the same with these characters. i felt i needed a fresh start, so i made a new account on dA, which would only be there for this webcomic. i didn't believe i would get much from it, after all it started with zero planning and only drew things that i found amusing, but it turned out better than i expected.
after a year of working on this, my art quality skyrocketed, and i was offered a job as a comic artist.
and yes, this is when i realized that i love drawing comics and only comics. i love breathing life into characters, i love seeing them move and interact and sigh and grumble.
its strange how a smallest thing can turn into a snowball of good things.
so if any of you have a friend who is depressed.
talking helps, but try and do something unexpected and nice for them too. maybe it will reawaken their old passions and turn their life around as it turned mine.